30 August 2008 Y
BLINKBLINK **
Love. Companion.
2 words that are in my mind.
What do each of them mean?
Subjective is the way I would describe them.
Definition of the 2 term which I found it online.
Love
Represents a range of emotions and experiences
related to the senses of affection and sexual attraction.
Companion
Having the company of another person whom
one can associate with and shares interests and activities with another person.
What is the difference between these 2 terms?
I asked many people.
However, some were able to tell me that
there is only 1 thing to differentiate them.
EMOTIONS also known as FEELINGS.
I actually realized that
Love and companion do co-exist together.
There are many factors which will cause both to happen in the end.
An example:
An arranged marriage.
Initially, no love exist between each party.
It was only companion at first.
As time passes by,
both parties spent more time with each other.
Love starts to blossom.
And that's how love starts.
It sounds simply isn't it?
However, I don't reckon it is that simply.
There are heaps of things involved in there.
Feelings.
Emotions.
States.
Attitudes.
All mixed into one.
That would be the definition of love.
Why can't love be simple?
Why must it be so complicating?
Love sounds like a simple word to say.
However, there are so much more to that word.
I am lost in thoughts now.
I am still searching for my lost soul.
Shall end here for today.
2 words that are in my mind.
What do each of them mean?
Subjective is the way I would describe them.
Definition of the 2 term which I found it online.
Love
Represents a range of emotions and experiences
related to the senses of affection and sexual attraction.
Companion
Having the company of another person whom
one can associate with and shares interests and activities with another person.
What is the difference between these 2 terms?
I asked many people.
However, some were able to tell me that
there is only 1 thing to differentiate them.
EMOTIONS also known as FEELINGS.
I actually realized that
Love and companion do co-exist together.
There are many factors which will cause both to happen in the end.
An example:
An arranged marriage.
Initially, no love exist between each party.
It was only companion at first.
As time passes by,
both parties spent more time with each other.
Love starts to blossom.
And that's how love starts.
It sounds simply isn't it?
However, I don't reckon it is that simply.
There are heaps of things involved in there.
Feelings.
Emotions.
States.
Attitudes.
All mixed into one.
That would be the definition of love.
Why can't love be simple?
Why must it be so complicating?
Love sounds like a simple word to say.
However, there are so much more to that word.
I am lost in thoughts now.
I am still searching for my lost soul.
Shall end here for today.
24 August 2008 Y
BLINKBLINK **
So many things had happened.
I stayed at home everyday
other than Wednesday whereby I was forced to go to school.
During these few days,
So many things have been running in my mind.
Questions.
Doubts.
Confusion.
Sad.
Anger.
Lonely.
Memories of happiness.
So many nights and days.
I cried.
Insomia.
No appetite.
Although I was unable to think clearly.
But yet, there are so many questions in my head.
No matter how tired I am.
I am still unable to sleep.
I still miss him.
At the same time,
I felt
Scared.
Confused.
Fear.
I really can't describe in my own words.
As I am unable to elaborate my feelings very well.
Today, when I was in IRC,
I came across someone saying this:
True love is when you shed a tear and still want him.
It's when he ignores you and you still love him.
It's when he loves another but you still smile and say "i'm happy for you."
When all you really do is cry....and cry
Is that the definition of true love?
If that is, I would say that I do love him.
However, throughout all these days of reflection.
I realized that I shouldn't put all the blame on him.
It is also partially my fault too.
Many people would say that it is not my fault.
When a relationship fails, especially a long distance relationship.
It is not just one party's fault.
There's always a reason why things would happen.
I do understand how he feels.
Being all so alone when I am far away.
I sincerely do.
As I also do feel super lonely here too.
Many people would reckon.
What he does is a selfish act.
But once again.
Let me ask you a question:
"Have you never been selfish before?"
We are human afterall.
Human do make mistakes.
Mistakes which one cant control at all.
Hence, there is a phrase which I mentioned earlier:
"History repeats itself again."
I reckon nobody is able to understand what each party feels
except for the 2 of them.
However,
during these few days,
these are the things which I reflected for a successful relationship.
Care.
Respect.
Concern.
Understanding.
Being sensitive.
Listening to him/her actively .
There might be more stuff.
But these are the main stuff which I must learn.
If time is on my side,
I just hope that I would have the chance to turn back time.
I know I am being really silly.
But.
All I can say now.
If he is meant for me,
he will be.
Only time can tell.
Time is the only test for the relationship.
I won't know what to expect.
But yeah.
So be it.
Time is the only test.
I stayed at home everyday
other than Wednesday whereby I was forced to go to school.
During these few days,
So many things have been running in my mind.
Questions.
Doubts.
Confusion.
Sad.
Anger.
Lonely.
Memories of happiness.
So many nights and days.
I cried.
Insomia.
No appetite.
Although I was unable to think clearly.
But yet, there are so many questions in my head.
No matter how tired I am.
I am still unable to sleep.
I still miss him.
At the same time,
I felt
Scared.
Confused.
Fear.
I really can't describe in my own words.
As I am unable to elaborate my feelings very well.
Today, when I was in IRC,
I came across someone saying this:
True love is when you shed a tear and still want him.
It's when he ignores you and you still love him.
It's when he loves another but you still smile and say "i'm happy for you."
When all you really do is cry....and cry
Is that the definition of true love?
If that is, I would say that I do love him.
However, throughout all these days of reflection.
I realized that I shouldn't put all the blame on him.
It is also partially my fault too.
Many people would say that it is not my fault.
When a relationship fails, especially a long distance relationship.
It is not just one party's fault.
There's always a reason why things would happen.
I do understand how he feels.
Being all so alone when I am far away.
I sincerely do.
As I also do feel super lonely here too.
Many people would reckon.
What he does is a selfish act.
But once again.
Let me ask you a question:
"Have you never been selfish before?"
We are human afterall.
Human do make mistakes.
Mistakes which one cant control at all.
Hence, there is a phrase which I mentioned earlier:
"History repeats itself again."
I reckon nobody is able to understand what each party feels
except for the 2 of them.
However,
during these few days,
these are the things which I reflected for a successful relationship.
Care.
Respect.
Concern.
Understanding.
Being sensitive.
Listening to him/her actively .
There might be more stuff.
But these are the main stuff which I must learn.
If time is on my side,
I just hope that I would have the chance to turn back time.
I know I am being really silly.
But.
All I can say now.
If he is meant for me,
he will be.
Only time can tell.
Time is the only test for the relationship.
I won't know what to expect.
But yeah.
So be it.
Time is the only test.
21 August 2008 Y
BLINKBLINK **
Today is the 4th day that we broke up.
I thought I was able to stop thinking of him.
However, I failed.
Lost.
Weak.
Angry.
Lonely.
Shocked.
Confused.
Devastated.
I really don't know how and what to feel.
Nothing is going on well.
I can't concentrate on my studies.
I know I should not do that.
But even when I start studying.
It is still him that is flashing in my mind.
These few days,
I really ponder.
Am I really such a failure?
Why is it that guys will also fall for another girl?
Is it that I didn't treat them well enough?
I keep on thinking it is my fault.
The fault of leaving him all alone there.
Blaming myself of not being able to come back and meet up with him.
However, many people tell me it isn't my fault.
But I can't blame him myself too.
It is the reason that he misses me too much.
He felt so lonely when I wasn't by his side.
Although we webcam, chat on the phone, irc, msn.
Any form of communication.
But yet, I still failed.
He felt so lonely.
Now he is lonely.
So am I.
Being in a foreign country.
All by myself.
With nobody to look for.
All my friends are far away from me.
All my family are not near me.
I fell too deep.
Deep into a tunnel where I see nothing
Darkness might be the word.
Or maybe not.
I really don't know.
I even had a dream.
A dream of me being homeless in Australia.
My housemate thought that I would be moving out.
So they searched for another housemate.
I thought I would look for another place.
Unfortunately, the place was no longer available for me to stay.
Homeless.
Lost.
Sad.
Is the dream trying to telling me what I am feeling?
Or is the dream actually reflecting how I am feeling?
I really don't know.
Unable to understand anything that comes to my mind.
Other than him running through my mind.
Be it before and after my sleep.
In the bus all by myself
In class which I always attend on every Wednesday.
Every single thought that comes to me is him.
Why am I really such a failure?
Why am I unable to stand up once again like I used to do so?
I really hate myself for doing that.
I really don't want to feel that way.
But I just can't stop it at all.
During these few days, many people tried to console me.
I really appreciate everybody's help.
However, I still can't find a meaning to move on.
I simply just miss him heaps.
People think I am silly.
I should get on.
But I really unsure of when am I able to stand up once again
and be the happy-go-lucky person that I used to be.
Is it silly for me to fall in love so deeply for someone?
Should I be faithful to someone in the first place?
What should I do?
I really don't know at all.
But all I do now is to cry every now and then whenever I think about him.
It is just so depressing.
How long more must it take for me to get over it.
I am unable to know.
All the food that I eat are even tasteless.
Chocolates are tasteless to me.
Sweet ice cream that I tried even tasted sour.
What is wrong with my taste bud.
No mood to eat anything at all.
My clothes become loser now.
It seems to be good news.
But I am not that happy.
Nothing seems to be able to cheer me up anymore.
I just want him.
Nothing else but him.
Every single moment of silence
is the time I think about him.
All the happy moments
though they are short
each of them were still so sweet to me.
I can't find anything to find anything to even hate him.
I still miss and love him heaps.
I thought I was able to stop thinking of him.
However, I failed.
Lost.
Weak.
Angry.
Lonely.
Shocked.
Confused.
Devastated.
I really don't know how and what to feel.
Nothing is going on well.
I can't concentrate on my studies.
I know I should not do that.
But even when I start studying.
It is still him that is flashing in my mind.
These few days,
I really ponder.
Am I really such a failure?
Why is it that guys will also fall for another girl?
Is it that I didn't treat them well enough?
I keep on thinking it is my fault.
The fault of leaving him all alone there.
Blaming myself of not being able to come back and meet up with him.
However, many people tell me it isn't my fault.
But I can't blame him myself too.
It is the reason that he misses me too much.
He felt so lonely when I wasn't by his side.
Although we webcam, chat on the phone, irc, msn.
Any form of communication.
But yet, I still failed.
He felt so lonely.
Now he is lonely.
So am I.
Being in a foreign country.
All by myself.
With nobody to look for.
All my friends are far away from me.
All my family are not near me.
I fell too deep.
Deep into a tunnel where I see nothing
Darkness might be the word.
Or maybe not.
I really don't know.
I even had a dream.
A dream of me being homeless in Australia.
My housemate thought that I would be moving out.
So they searched for another housemate.
I thought I would look for another place.
Unfortunately, the place was no longer available for me to stay.
Homeless.
Lost.
Sad.
Is the dream trying to telling me what I am feeling?
Or is the dream actually reflecting how I am feeling?
I really don't know.
Unable to understand anything that comes to my mind.
Other than him running through my mind.
Be it before and after my sleep.
In the bus all by myself
In class which I always attend on every Wednesday.
Every single thought that comes to me is him.
Why am I really such a failure?
Why am I unable to stand up once again like I used to do so?
I really hate myself for doing that.
I really don't want to feel that way.
But I just can't stop it at all.
During these few days, many people tried to console me.
I really appreciate everybody's help.
However, I still can't find a meaning to move on.
I simply just miss him heaps.
People think I am silly.
I should get on.
But I really unsure of when am I able to stand up once again
and be the happy-go-lucky person that I used to be.
Is it silly for me to fall in love so deeply for someone?
Should I be faithful to someone in the first place?
What should I do?
I really don't know at all.
But all I do now is to cry every now and then whenever I think about him.
It is just so depressing.
How long more must it take for me to get over it.
I am unable to know.
All the food that I eat are even tasteless.
Chocolates are tasteless to me.
Sweet ice cream that I tried even tasted sour.
What is wrong with my taste bud.
No mood to eat anything at all.
My clothes become loser now.
It seems to be good news.
But I am not that happy.
Nothing seems to be able to cheer me up anymore.
I just want him.
Nothing else but him.
Every single moment of silence
is the time I think about him.
All the happy moments
though they are short
each of them were still so sweet to me.
I can't find anything to find anything to even hate him.
I still miss and love him heaps.
18 August 2008 Y
BLINKBLINK **
So many things have happened.
I didn't expect things to turn out like that.
I really wonder is it me who have actually brought this to be like that?
Why do I feel so weak?
Lost?
From a sudden of 'I miss you alot" to a sudden "I fall in love with someone else".
Why did these change just like that?
Is it cause of my previous blog?
He reassured me that he won't be unfaithful and disloyal to me.
However, it doesn't seem to be the case.
He told me he likes another person.
It really shocked me.
I am unsure why is that so?
I tried crying.
Too little tears.
Is that numb?
Or is that a feeling of being lost?
How long again will I need to take to love someone again?
It took me so much courage to love him.
But yet, things just seem to be a flop.
What should I do?
I know I am suppose to move on.
But how am I able to move on just like that?
It is just so fast and too sudden.
I really can't take it anymore.
Sleepless nights.
Feeling hungry but yet no mood to eat at all.
I want to be friends.
But how am I going to take that courage to do that?
How are things to be be like?
Once a lover.
Now no longer a pair.
Not long ago,
I had a dream of me breaking up and patching up again.
But additionally to having policeman interrograting me and trying to put me in jail too.
What is that dream trying to tell me?
I really don't know.
I really wish I can know the meaning of the dream.
What should I do?
I need to wake up.
Wake up and continue with my life.
However,
I still feel so weak.
I can't move on.
I even have plans of going back soon and keeping him company.
However, now it just ends just like that.
I really cant take it anymore.
I won't know what I will do to myself.
It just seems to be sleep, eat and do anything at all.
Life seems so meaningless now.
What is the use of being faithful and loyal to one person?
When what I get in return is disappointment.
So many assurance was given to me initially.
But now..
All are gone.
Just like the wind.
I understand that he is feeling lonely.
But now I can't even think rationally.
My mind just cant stop thinking of him.
So many things that I prepared for him.
What am I going to do about it now?
Can someone tell me something?
What should I do?
I really hate this feeling.
I don't know what to do.
Lost.
Devastated.
Sad.
Heart broken.
When can I find my heart and soul again?
I didn't expect things to turn out like that.
I really wonder is it me who have actually brought this to be like that?
Why do I feel so weak?
Lost?
From a sudden of 'I miss you alot" to a sudden "I fall in love with someone else".
Why did these change just like that?
Is it cause of my previous blog?
He reassured me that he won't be unfaithful and disloyal to me.
However, it doesn't seem to be the case.
He told me he likes another person.
It really shocked me.
I am unsure why is that so?
I tried crying.
Too little tears.
Is that numb?
Or is that a feeling of being lost?
How long again will I need to take to love someone again?
It took me so much courage to love him.
But yet, things just seem to be a flop.
What should I do?
I know I am suppose to move on.
But how am I able to move on just like that?
It is just so fast and too sudden.
I really can't take it anymore.
Sleepless nights.
Feeling hungry but yet no mood to eat at all.
I want to be friends.
But how am I going to take that courage to do that?
How are things to be be like?
Once a lover.
Now no longer a pair.
Not long ago,
I had a dream of me breaking up and patching up again.
But additionally to having policeman interrograting me and trying to put me in jail too.
What is that dream trying to tell me?
I really don't know.
I really wish I can know the meaning of the dream.
What should I do?
I need to wake up.
Wake up and continue with my life.
However,
I still feel so weak.
I can't move on.
I even have plans of going back soon and keeping him company.
However, now it just ends just like that.
I really cant take it anymore.
I won't know what I will do to myself.
It just seems to be sleep, eat and do anything at all.
Life seems so meaningless now.
What is the use of being faithful and loyal to one person?
When what I get in return is disappointment.
So many assurance was given to me initially.
But now..
All are gone.
Just like the wind.
I understand that he is feeling lonely.
But now I can't even think rationally.
My mind just cant stop thinking of him.
So many things that I prepared for him.
What am I going to do about it now?
Can someone tell me something?
What should I do?
I really hate this feeling.
I don't know what to do.
Lost.
Devastated.
Sad.
Heart broken.
When can I find my heart and soul again?
10 August 2008 Y
BLINKBLINK **
This week had been a really hard week for me.
So many things had happened. Sighs.
However, there is one thing that give me the most impact.
History repeated its history again.
I have so many questions in my mind.
Can anybody answer my questions?
1. Why can't an individual just be loyal to their life partner?
I reckon even aniamls can do a better job than human.
An example would be birds.
Birds are loyal and faithfyl to their life partner for their entire life.
So, why are human unable to do the same too?
Does this mean that animals are much better than human?
At least they are loyal and faithful to their partners.
2. Why there are third parties that will break up the families?
It is so sickening to have such people to do that.
I simply HATE such people.
Does this mean that the happiness which was shown by the couple previously was fake?
Making it just a scene to show that a couple if happy.
However, it is just an act?
Isn't that sad?
3. If there's such a thing called adultery, what should the other partner do when he/she discovered that their life partner has another person involved in their marriage?
Divorce? This will affect the whole family.
This is simply a selfish act of that person who does such thing.
Althernatively, should he/she pretend that nothing happened?
If he/she does that, would it makes one become crazy?
How long do you think that one person can stand it for how long?
After forgiving this person once for this mistake,
should the person be forgiven again once again if he/she commits the same mistake again?
Have the person actually thought of his/her family before doing such a thing.
Isn't it stupid?
He/she knows that it isn't right,
but yet still does it and still seek for forgiveness again after that.
If it is me, I reckon there won't be such history happening in my life.
I rather choose divorce rather than suffer repeatedly again.
No matter how much I love that person.
If he/she prefers that, I rather give the person the freedom rather than holding him back
which will in turn make myself suffer.
You can say that I am selfish.
But I rather protect myself rather than being hurt by such feelings again.
This leads to my other question:
4. During marriage, why are there marriage vows such as:
"Do you take ___ as your lawful wife/husband,
to have and to hold,
from this day forward,
for better or for worse,
for richer or for poorer,
in sickness and in health,
to love and cherish until death do you part?"
Does each party actually mean it at all?
Then why will there be adultery in the 1st place?
Sometimes I really wonder:
"Is there such thing called LOVE?"
I reckon from what I see, it doesnt seem to be the case.
How am I going to believe in love?
Seeing so many failed marriage in this world.
Sighs.
5. Why are there such thing called "Happily ever after?"
There is no such thing happening in such a world?
So many unhappy marriage or even relationship existed in this world.
I see some friends and family have long lasting relationship.
How do they actually do that?
It is due to
(a) habit of being togther?
(b) Real true love?
(c) Others which I also have no idea at all.
I need answers!!
Devastated.
Sad.
Angry.
Confused.
So many different kind of feelings mixed together.
What should I do?
Still believe in love?
Or should not believe that there is no such thing as love at all?
Should I just be single?
Just be together with someone and just be like that?
How am I going to get assurance for marriage and love?
It is so difficult.
I am still trying my best to stay faithful and loyal to the one I love.
However, seeing all these things that happened,
it just makes me worried.
Scared that such happy marriage won't happen in my life.
I really have no idea of what to do.
Sighs.
I can emphatize the victim (shown in the picture)
Now I have not much mood to talk now.
I shall continue to blog next time.
Sighs.
So many things had happened. Sighs.
However, there is one thing that give me the most impact.
History repeated its history again.
I have so many questions in my mind.
Can anybody answer my questions?
1. Why can't an individual just be loyal to their life partner?
I reckon even aniamls can do a better job than human.
An example would be birds.
Birds are loyal and faithfyl to their life partner for their entire life.
So, why are human unable to do the same too?
Does this mean that animals are much better than human?
At least they are loyal and faithful to their partners.
2. Why there are third parties that will break up the families?
It is so sickening to have such people to do that.
I simply HATE such people.
Does this mean that the happiness which was shown by the couple previously was fake?
Making it just a scene to show that a couple if happy.
However, it is just an act?
Isn't that sad?
3. If there's such a thing called adultery, what should the other partner do when he/she discovered that their life partner has another person involved in their marriage?
Divorce? This will affect the whole family.
This is simply a selfish act of that person who does such thing.
Althernatively, should he/she pretend that nothing happened?
If he/she does that, would it makes one become crazy?
How long do you think that one person can stand it for how long?
After forgiving this person once for this mistake,
should the person be forgiven again once again if he/she commits the same mistake again?
Have the person actually thought of his/her family before doing such a thing.
Isn't it stupid?
He/she knows that it isn't right,
but yet still does it and still seek for forgiveness again after that.
If it is me, I reckon there won't be such history happening in my life.
I rather choose divorce rather than suffer repeatedly again.
No matter how much I love that person.
If he/she prefers that, I rather give the person the freedom rather than holding him back
which will in turn make myself suffer.
You can say that I am selfish.
But I rather protect myself rather than being hurt by such feelings again.
This leads to my other question:
4. During marriage, why are there marriage vows such as:
"Do you take ___ as your lawful wife/husband,
to have and to hold,
from this day forward,
for better or for worse,
for richer or for poorer,
in sickness and in health,
to love and cherish until death do you part?"
Does each party actually mean it at all?
Then why will there be adultery in the 1st place?
Sometimes I really wonder:
"Is there such thing called LOVE?"
I reckon from what I see, it doesnt seem to be the case.
How am I going to believe in love?
Seeing so many failed marriage in this world.
Sighs.
5. Why are there such thing called "Happily ever after?"
There is no such thing happening in such a world?
So many unhappy marriage or even relationship existed in this world.
I see some friends and family have long lasting relationship.
How do they actually do that?
It is due to
(a) habit of being togther?
(b) Real true love?
(c) Others which I also have no idea at all.
I need answers!!
Devastated.
Sad.
Angry.
Confused.
So many different kind of feelings mixed together.
What should I do?
Still believe in love?
Or should not believe that there is no such thing as love at all?
Should I just be single?
Just be together with someone and just be like that?
How am I going to get assurance for marriage and love?
It is so difficult.
I am still trying my best to stay faithful and loyal to the one I love.
However, seeing all these things that happened,
it just makes me worried.
Scared that such happy marriage won't happen in my life.
I really have no idea of what to do.
Sighs.
I can emphatize the victim (shown in the picture)
Now I have not much mood to talk now.
I shall continue to blog next time.
Sighs.
09 August 2008 Y
BLINKBLINK **
I have been sleeping and waking up early these few days.
Something different for a noctural.
It is a cold saturday.
I woke up at around 10am in the morning.
A good day to rest at home.
However, I had promised my classmate, Yetti,
that I would be meeting her at Flinder Medical Centre (FMC) bus stop.
Today, she arrived Adelaide from Hong Kong and she needed my help too.
Initially, it wasn't raining at all when I left my house.
It was a sunny but yet cooling day.
However, when I arrived and met Yetti.
The rain started pouring.
I simply hate going out on a rainy day.
I will get all wet which I hate it.
If I have a choice,
I would rather stay at home in my warm and cosy room.
Just love that cosy feeling during winter.
Since I promised Yetti previously, I kept my promise and went out.
She came back a couple of weeks earlier to revise her Clinical stuff together with me which will start in September.
Both of us are really worried for our placement.
Therefore, we decided to start earlier and revise together so that we can graduate in 17th December 2008.
I actually can't wait for that day to come.
Something different for a noctural.
It is a cold saturday.
I woke up at around 10am in the morning.
A good day to rest at home.
However, I had promised my classmate, Yetti,
that I would be meeting her at Flinder Medical Centre (FMC) bus stop.
Today, she arrived Adelaide from Hong Kong and she needed my help too.
Initially, it wasn't raining at all when I left my house.
It was a sunny but yet cooling day.
However, when I arrived and met Yetti.
The rain started pouring.
I simply hate going out on a rainy day.
I will get all wet which I hate it.
If I have a choice,
I would rather stay at home in my warm and cosy room.
Just love that cosy feeling during winter.
Since I promised Yetti previously, I kept my promise and went out.
She came back a couple of weeks earlier to revise her Clinical stuff together with me which will start in September.
Both of us are really worried for our placement.
Therefore, we decided to start earlier and revise together so that we can graduate in 17th December 2008.
I actually can't wait for that day to come.
Anyway, let's go back to the topic.
After she arrived and settled down her stuff in FMC Flats,
we decide to take the earliest bus to Westfielf Marion Shopping Centre.
She needed to get some stuff and food from there.
Therefore, I kept her company.
When we went shopping, I bought a number of stuff from Gloss again.
The following are the items which I bought today.
My Glitter Stuff
Each item cost AU$4.95.
Glitter Mascara
Glitter Eye Cream
Anyway, I shall end now for my blog.
It is time for me to continue on my critical review report again.
It is going to be due soon.
Hope you all enjoy reading my blog.
07 August 2008 Y
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Another week had passed. Michelle and I went shopping to Westfield Marion shopping centre once again. Today, the main aim of this trip was for her to get the stuff that she needs as she would be going over to Sydney from Tuesday (12.8.08) to Saturday (16.8.08). She wanted to get a bag to put in her laptop. Last week, we went shopping and she saw a bag that she liked. However, we didn't get it yet as she was still considering what bag she wanted to get. However, we walked around the shopping centre again. She bought the bag which she wanted in our previous trip. It costed AU$50.00.
However, we still walked around. We saw a shop called Sintra Marion. In that shop, many bags on sales. She bought another 2 small bags. Each costed AU$25.00. On the other hand, I purchased a bag (shown below). The bag is actually an Aussie brand bag, Amorni. I can use it for my work thereafter which my internship starts. I bought the bag at almost half price. Initially, it costed AU$69.95. However, it is only $39.00. I find it pretty useful as there are many pockets. I can also put my folders and other neccessities in there too.
However, we still walked around. We saw a shop called Sintra Marion. In that shop, many bags on sales. She bought another 2 small bags. Each costed AU$25.00. On the other hand, I purchased a bag (shown below). The bag is actually an Aussie brand bag, Amorni. I can use it for my work thereafter which my internship starts. I bought the bag at almost half price. Initially, it costed AU$69.95. However, it is only $39.00. I find it pretty useful as there are many pockets. I can also put my folders and other neccessities in there too.
My new bag
Front View
Front View
Back view
After we purchased the bag, we went shopping again. I went to look at some other stuff. However, I am unable to get the stuff from Gloss which my friend wanted 3 items. I apologise for that though. The sales lady said that not all items shown in the website will be available in the shop. So I reckon you might need to look for some other stuff in future though.
Anyway, it is time for me to go off now. Hope to see you all soon. Enjoy your day too. =)
02 August 2008 Y
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It had been quite sometime since I last baked something. I would reckon it might be at least half a year since I last baked something. Recently, I have been craving for cheese cake. I wanted to make cheese cake wedneday. However, I have been really tired, busy with quite a lot of things and lacked of certain ingredients.
On thurday morning before I head out for my grocery shopping with Michelle, I searched on google websites for recipes on cheesecake recipe consisting of baileys and chocolates. I chose to bake this cake due to:
(1) I am a chocoholic.
(2) I have 2 bottles of baileys and I want to make a recipe out of my caramel baileys.
Therefore, I decided to bake cheesecake comprising of those 2 ingredients.
That afternoon, I went to Coles and got most of my ingredients. However, I did not write down the recipe on a piece of paper for my grocery list. I realized that I was missing one block of cream cheese for my cake. Hence, I can only make a cake using one block of philadelphia cream cheese. I combined a couple of recipes and came out with my recipes. It is my first time making a baked cheesecake. I used to make the other kind of cheesecake using gelatine. However, I wanted to do something different. Therefore, I decided to try the baking option this time. Anyway, here are the pictures.
On thurday morning before I head out for my grocery shopping with Michelle, I searched on google websites for recipes on cheesecake recipe consisting of baileys and chocolates. I chose to bake this cake due to:
(1) I am a chocoholic.
(2) I have 2 bottles of baileys and I want to make a recipe out of my caramel baileys.
Therefore, I decided to bake cheesecake comprising of those 2 ingredients.
That afternoon, I went to Coles and got most of my ingredients. However, I did not write down the recipe on a piece of paper for my grocery list. I realized that I was missing one block of cream cheese for my cake. Hence, I can only make a cake using one block of philadelphia cream cheese. I combined a couple of recipes and came out with my recipes. It is my first time making a baked cheesecake. I used to make the other kind of cheesecake using gelatine. However, I wanted to do something different. Therefore, I decided to try the baking option this time. Anyway, here are the pictures.
Baking in Progress
Freshly baked from the oven
It was quite a long wait (~1.5 hours) before my cake finally baked. However, I was impatient and try my new creation. Therefore, I cut my cake within 5-10 minutes after baking which I reckon there isn't sufficient time for it to cool down. The texture was very mashy and disgusting. I seriously think it is a flop. The first time I tried the cake, it had a very strong baileys taste. It might be the possibility of me not mixing evenly before I baked my cake. Or it might possible be due to the taste not settled down yet.
The sliced piece (after cooling)
However, after a couple of hours cooling down in the fridge, the appearance seems to have improved. I am able to see 3 layers of the cake now. The taste is quite fantastic too. Simply love it. Neither too sweet nor having the strong baileys taste.
Next time, if I were to make another cheesecake, I reckon I might try to use the other method (frozen) cheesecake in future. It might possibly be a better option.
Anyway, thanks for reading my blog. Hope you all enjoy reading it. Good night for now. See you soon too. :)
Freshly baked from the oven
It was quite a long wait (~1.5 hours) before my cake finally baked. However, I was impatient and try my new creation. Therefore, I cut my cake within 5-10 minutes after baking which I reckon there isn't sufficient time for it to cool down. The texture was very mashy and disgusting. I seriously think it is a flop. The first time I tried the cake, it had a very strong baileys taste. It might be the possibility of me not mixing evenly before I baked my cake. Or it might possible be due to the taste not settled down yet.
The sliced piece (after cooling)
However, after a couple of hours cooling down in the fridge, the appearance seems to have improved. I am able to see 3 layers of the cake now. The taste is quite fantastic too. Simply love it. Neither too sweet nor having the strong baileys taste.
Next time, if I were to make another cheesecake, I reckon I might try to use the other method (frozen) cheesecake in future. It might possibly be a better option.
Anyway, thanks for reading my blog. Hope you all enjoy reading it. Good night for now. See you soon too. :)
01 August 2008 Y
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This wednesday (30th July 2008), I had Journal Club session again. I met up some of my classmate. However, before I left the school to head home, one of my classmate, Cher, organized a class dinner in the city at Wasai Japanese Resturant. The next day, I received an email from regarding the details of the restaurant.
Our appointment was at 7pm. However, I was a little late as I missed the 6.10pm bus number 212U. In the end, I realized the next bus was only at 7pm. Initially, I wanted to take a cab to Flinders Medical Centre (FMC) bus stop to catch another bus to the city. However, there were neither the cab was available nor any cab at all.
The weather is quite chilly (~14degrees or less). Luckily, I was warm in my winter clothes. However, I still waited for the bus. At 6.45pm, another bus came. It was the intended bus that I was taking. It stopped at bus stop number 30 before I walked to Main South Road to catch bus number 721. I reached Grote Street at around 7.15pm. When I arrived, I took a short walk to Field street. It isn't very difficult to find the place as there was a map provided in the email. I entered the restaurant and realized that I'd been there last year with my friends last year. But I didn't realized that it would be the exact same place.
Wasai Japanese Restaurant
From outside the shop, I wasn't able to see my classmates. Therefore, I called Cher. She told me she was at the back. When I walked in, I saw 7 of my classmates - Cher, Yee Chi, Tara, Wai Ping, Jean, George and Heath. Some of their food were served whereas Tara and Jean have not ordered theirs. I was confused of what to order. However, I ordered Sukiyaki, Tempura and rice (AU$1.50). The total cost for my dinner was AU$26.00. Anyway, here are the pictures of the 2 dishes (excluding rice).
Our appointment was at 7pm. However, I was a little late as I missed the 6.10pm bus number 212U. In the end, I realized the next bus was only at 7pm. Initially, I wanted to take a cab to Flinders Medical Centre (FMC) bus stop to catch another bus to the city. However, there were neither the cab was available nor any cab at all.
The weather is quite chilly (~14degrees or less). Luckily, I was warm in my winter clothes. However, I still waited for the bus. At 6.45pm, another bus came. It was the intended bus that I was taking. It stopped at bus stop number 30 before I walked to Main South Road to catch bus number 721. I reached Grote Street at around 7.15pm. When I arrived, I took a short walk to Field street. It isn't very difficult to find the place as there was a map provided in the email. I entered the restaurant and realized that I'd been there last year with my friends last year. But I didn't realized that it would be the exact same place.
Wasai Japanese Restaurant
From outside the shop, I wasn't able to see my classmates. Therefore, I called Cher. She told me she was at the back. When I walked in, I saw 7 of my classmates - Cher, Yee Chi, Tara, Wai Ping, Jean, George and Heath. Some of their food were served whereas Tara and Jean have not ordered theirs. I was confused of what to order. However, I ordered Sukiyaki, Tempura and rice (AU$1.50). The total cost for my dinner was AU$26.00. Anyway, here are the pictures of the 2 dishes (excluding rice).
Sukiyaki
Cost: AU$15.00
Tempura (Entree)
Cost: AU$9.50
After our dinner, we decided to have a cuppa before we head home. One of us decide on going to CIBO Expresso Cafe for cuppa. I've ordered a cup of hot chocolate as I heard many of my friends recommended the hot chocolate. After I ordered my drink, I realized that my drink was different from the recommended drink. It was dark hot chocolate. Anway, I still like my cup of hot chocolate. There are heaps of coco powder on top. It was great, neither too sweet or too bland. Here is the picture of it.
Hot Chocolate
Cost: AU$4.10
After our cuppa, Tera sent a couple of us home. I would like to thank Tera for sending me back.
Anyway, it is getting a little late now. I will blog soon. Hope you guys enjoy reading my blog. Have a nice day too. =)